so confusing now....haiz...

wat should i do.....its like i'm kinda believe in christianity..i mean....its just unexplainable....coz whenever i wanna pray...1st thought in my mind is jesus....y...omg....i told my mom bout it...she is not serious at all.....if i wan to convert it shud be okay...but...my grandma...how should i tell her....all my relatives...my families...all different religion...wat the gonnna think of me???....owh god...pls help me.....show me ur guiding light...hmmm