Staying in the hospital...

hmmm....so i went for MRI scan and the doctor said i have to go for a surgery and indeed i went....the feeling is kinda awesome ??hahaha.....in the operation room,they gave me a tablet....the next thing i know is that my operation is complete...hahaha!...i din feel anything at all..no pain..nothing !....hmmm...after i woke up,i feel super duper dizzy..completely no strength....super weak..due to the tablet they gave me earlier i guess..hahaha...

1st day...
my siblings came to visit me....like normal only la..hahaha...just that i cant talk or move....hmmm...

2nd day...
jason,lipeng,yen yen and tee sern came and visit me..hahaha.....lipeng and yenyen is so odd....we were like so quiet...i guess we are not close enough so got nothing much to talk bout?haha...btw..thx for the card =D...shinling came and visit also but then i was asleep,she left a note for me..LOL....

3rd day...
i was suppose to be walking already but then when i sit right up,i feel super duper dizzy due to lying on the bed for 3 days alraedy..haha...then i sleep for awhile....then my cousins and sibling came...at the same time,the therapy lady came also to teach me how to exercise..hahaha.....when i'm about to start,mayjiuan and her bro came =D  so awkward le..hahaha!..for dunno how long din talk to her d and suddenly she came...hmmm....thx anyway !....then,later in the evening my classmates came..hahaha....kinda happy..ehem..they know why..LOL....but then they go back very early..BOH SIM wan..haiz.....around 11pm,shinling and shind came....ish ! they keep laugh at me for being "old" d...haiz....

4th day...
i'm out of this freaking hospital and back home...and now blogging bout this..HAHAHA....



GUYS..if you have to go for surgery go for it...you wont feel pain at all...the technology is SUPERB...injections,antibiotics,take blood....all u wont feel pain.....coz they wot even poke you =D

PAIN !!

the pain i'm having now is the worst i've ever experienced before...imagine...i cant sit,sleep,walk....and guess what..i was standing while typing this post...its too late when i found this thingy..i went for injections,massage,traditional medicine all din work....until when i had this intense pain..i decided to go back to the specialist ad he did MRI scan..and it seems that my soft bone came out and my whole nerve was blocked...that is why...

i burst out into tears whenever i get up from my bed...coz the pain in my back is SUPERB....the feeling is like i rather i end my life....something like that...i do wanna give up until certain extend...its too pain...

i eat 2 painkillers in less 3hours...imagine that...hmmm....and i have to eat sleeping pill to make me sleep....haiz...

the pain is killing me.....

thursday i will be having surgery...its my 1st time having this experience..i will take it as a experience...adventure for me =D

furthermore..i guess it a test of friendship eh???hahahha....

PAIN !!!

We wont appreciate something until....

We wont appreciate something until it is disappear from our world.Its like we wont believe in ghostuntil we experience it..

There is so many things I dont appreciate..Actually its everything...I din appreciate everything in life...Friends,families,belongings ad PET !

I ignore her most of the time.Left her alone..playing by hersel..All i did was doing my own stuff.Why din i appreciate her at the 1st place???  She left us just like that...

She had the thought that we dont want her anymore by leavig her at the vet...

I regret..I regret everything I had done..She left alone..She died ALONE ! if she died by my side,i'll be glad..I'm so effing regret now.This feeling SUCKS !

Why I din appreciate her nicely at the 1st place ??haiz...

Chessie if you could hear me..

I would like to apologise to you for ignoring you all this while.I hope you will forgive me..You will be in our heart forever..Chessie,we love you...Rest in peace my best of the best partner :'(

my precious one :(

her name is chessie..born on 7th of nov 2007...introduced into the family on 13th of feb 2008...and passed away on 10th of march 2011

At first she is so shy..very shy...slowly..as time passes,she adapt to us and get close to my family..she is getting hyper day by day..to be exact she is so hyper everyday...
I'm the one that are closest to her.Whenever i come back,or came out from my bedroom,she will start barking..My family,cousins and all say that she is like my wife...She follow wherever i go...

But what i do to her??? leave her alone most of the time...din even play with her or talk to her..most of time i will put her in the cage..even if i do let her out,i will playing dota or online or do some other stuff ignoring her..Most of the time i will oly know how to scold her for barking so much..She is so lonely..I din event notice that....what kind of owner am I ??

And then she injured her leg..after that she got sick.....WEAK,NO BARKING,NOT ACTIVE.......she changed...totally changed !....she is out of the cage most of the time...but still i din even talk to her or play with her..I only bring her to the bedroom to sleep with me....this period of time,she sleep with me....silently....peacefully....normally when she eter my bedroom,she wil jump here and there and wont even wanna sleep with me....and now she did !...its like she is suffering....Then i sent her to vet last night...the vet sasid they wil try their best....this morning,she had passed away....I dun even know what to react...it is so sudden :(

I cried...yes i admit i cried.....coz i miss her so much....she gone just like that....and I FEEL SO BAD that i was not with her when she passed away....SHE WAS LEFT ALONE in the vet when she died....I guessed she died because she thought that we dun wan her anymore...coz before that she is still ok...HAIZ>....CHESSIE why...why you have to give up so easily :'( .... Even when she is dead,her eyes and mouth still open :'(  CHESSIE !!!....

Now at home....i miss her so much....got no1 to teman me anymore...CHESSIE i miss you...


Rest in peace chessie....may u born in a better life..sadhu sadhu sadhu

Something about guys.

If you treat him nice,he'll say you're in love with him
If you don't,he says you're proud.
If dress nicely,he'll say you're trying to impress him
If you don't he says,you're from the "kampung".

If you argue with him,he says you're stubborn
If you keep quiet,he says you have no brain.
If you're smarter than him,he'll lose face
If he smarter than you,he is great.

If you don't love him,he'll try to possess you
If you love him,he'll try to leave you.
If you don't let him kiss you,he'll say you don't love him
If you let him kiss you,he'll say you're cheap.

If you break your promise,you cannot be trusted
If he break him promise,he is forced to do so.
If you smoke,you're a bad girl
If he smokes,he is macho.

If you tell him your problems,he says you're troublesome
If you don't,he says you don't trust him.
If you scold him,you're like a nanny to him
If he scolds you,it's because he cares for you.

If you do well in examination,he say its luck
If he does well,it's brain
If you hurt him,you're cruel
If he hurts you,you're too sensitive...

=D

2011

I'm so gonna keep track on what I achieved in the year of 2011...Something that I'm proud of...

1) learnt how to cook seafood spaghetti..

2) Play in an orchestra performance..learnt how to play  kompang,cowbell and alot more stuff...awesome ! =D

3) I learn how to DANCE... 7/3/2011 is my 1st class..haha....1st song is "we speak no americano" =D