so what ?!

so what if its merdeka....

so what if its my burfday...

it is stilla normal day....normal routine.....boring day....haiz...

i thought it would be awesome but then...nothing special at all....

i thought that person would be the 1st to wish me....but guess what..its not....instead its CHEE HAN....omgosh..i miss u alot wei...CHEE HAN !!!.....arrghhh......2nd is my mom......she called me...how nice...hahahaha...next i forgot who d...hohoho....

"happy national day" instead of "happy burfday"...haiz....i feel so down...VERY VERY DOWN :' )...

its my burfday wei !! come on !!....i should be happy...YEA....HAPPY....hmmm......

get lots of ang pau....eat mee suah....

owh yea..talk bout mee suah.....my mommy cook mee suah with BAH KUT TEH and an egg....AWESOME combination..YUMMY...


thats all for now.....hope it will be awesome ahead.....haiz....

FML~~~

what i wanna do is FML!!!........

Am I dumb or stupid ?!?! TELL ME !!.....


ITS BOTH DUMB AND STUPID :)...


no point regretting now...as you said liying..haiz...


FYI....i'm not emo......these few days i'm having stomach ache in class...how to happy??hmmm...and its kinda stress okay.....so its not EMO.....NOT EMO......i am a happy go lucky person.....can ask those who know me well.....i think so la...hahaha.....so yea....i'm not emo....no need to worry whether wanna talk to me or not...just talk.....i wont eat you :)

Turn Your Frown Upside Down...

Stave off the blues with these fun tips ! :)

1) Dance like crazy...

Dancing get you moving,which boosts your blood circulation,ad gets your body working properly.As a bonus,this exercise helps your brain produce endorphins,those magical feel good chemicals.Also,if you've been hiding your feelings,or aren't too good at expressing yourself,then you ca use dance to act out the you feel.Once you've "spoken" you'll feel better !

2) Tell a joke...

When you're laughing,your brain releases endorphin,which are brain chemicals that make you feel good :)

3) Eat garlic !

Garlic affects the release of serotonin,the brain chemical that acts as a tranquilliser to calm you down,induce sleep and relieve depression.Eating a few cloves of fresh crushed garlic in your lunch can relieve stress in a natural way.

4) Pump up volume !

When you're down,don't listen to sad stuff ; it will only make you feel worse ! Instead,go for music that will give you a boost.

5) Take up running...

Running is a very simple activity,but it can pack a powerful punch and knock out that depression.Running helps the brain release feel-good chemicals,and tones the body,which improves self-esteem.

6) Let it all hang out...

People who have long-term or repeated episodes of depression,often find it useful to meet up with a support group.Just meeting up underlines the face that they are not the only ones who are struggling with depression.If you don't have a support group,create one by talking to friends and family.You'd be surprised how many people have been depressed at one time or another.

7) Eat chocolate...

Dark chocolate or cocoa helps boost your blood flow,which means your body floods with oxygen,giving you an instant energy boost.

8) Play video games...

Play video games can boost your health IF you pick the right ones.......look for "exergaming" devices that combine video game fun with real exercise :)

*HAPPY GO LUCKY*

Feeling blueeee???

Everyone feels blue sometimes,but when feeling down turns into depression,you've got to take action...

FEELING blue because you a C for that essay you worked so hard on ? Because you didn't make the team ? Because you can't get invited to the cool parties ? Because your parents are arguing - again ?

Life is becoming more stressful for everyone.Being down or sad because something isn't going well is perfectly normal.Everyone has a bad day,or even a bad week,every now and again.The problem starts when you feel bad for long periods of time.If you feel down for two weeks,doctors say you should seek medical help for depression :)

EIGHT SIGNS YOU'RE DEPRESSED....

cant figure out if you're just having a tough time or if you should talk to someone? check out this checklist :

#1 you feel helpless and hopeless...

No matter what's going on,you have this feeling that everything sucks,and that nothing you can do will change that - ever....

#2 Everything bores you...

You smile when your friends joke,but you don't feel it inside.You used to love swimming but now just can't be bothered.Even food doesn't taste right.

#3 You are exhausted...

You feel like you weigh a tonne,and everything exhausts you.Plus,you feel sore and achy like you've been working out too much.

#4...But you have insomnia

Although you're tired,your thoughts keep you awake half the night.

#5 Your brain is mush...

you can't think straight.You forget where you put things,can't make decisions,and cant concentrate - not even when you're watching Edward Cullen or Katie Perry do his/her stuff :)

#6 You're fighting mad...

Everything and everyone gets on your nerve.

#7 You hate yourself...

When you think of yourself,you can make up a long list of faults,but somehow,you can't think of your good points.

#8 Your body looks weird...

Your eating habits have totally changed,and you find yourself either stick thin or super fat.And those changes happened in like a month !

DEPRESSED = CRAZY ?? xD

what should I do....

what should I do to make things right/???i'm so lost...omg....haiz...YES...secret is meant to be secret....but as i said it will be a burden...hmmm....U TRUSTED me....i know that....at least i did not hide from you that i told some1....i told you coz i dunwan to lie to you...i'm sorry...


i told her that u trusted me and i hope that she wont tell....


she is worried now...because of 2 of us being like that....she wont tell any1...hmmm


i just hope that this thing wont ruin our friendship....i'm really sorry about it.....i really din expect it will be this bad....haiz...

*i'm sorry*

the pain...the pain....

ITS BACK....omg.....actually it didnt cure at all...haiz....doctor said must play sports.....but i not sure it is getting better or worse......haiz,,,,

see the colour on my leg....the powder suppose to be pure red....after that??BLACKISH!...haiz.....

its hurting me....

i cant sit properly....cant walk properly.....and its been more then a year already..haiz....

is there any other solution???haiz!!!

hmmmm

When u left i followed,
but it came to an end,
when i saw a guy who came to bring u,
i wonder who is he.......

i was left puzzled,
wit no clues nor sign,
jus a gudbye and thank u for that time,
off you go wit nothin left behind,
it was jus another empty seat beside me again!

minutes past, as hours follows,
finally u texted,
i wonder whats the prob,
i didnt reply as i was stunned,
but it came to a shocked u could notice the change...

days past as the phone lingers,
with memories of u left to a lonner,
kept asking but i cant tell u why,
but u insist so much,
i gave clues tat u've noe know.....

NOW U KNOW...............but wat can i do ............
I'll always be ant guy right there next to you!

weird dream!!

so...its something like dis.....all the character in my dream all i tak kenal wan...and i was like watching a show only.....its something like....watching some1 dream or something like dat..haha


so this guy.....his parents left him....dunno go where.....somehow they just appear....

so this guy told 1 uncle to tell his father to call him 5 mins later....coz he is leaving to other place.....but then when his dad meet with that uncle...that uncle told him it was 25mins ago d....HAHA!....THEN...

the uncle told his dad...about something that made me cried...he said "ur son had been waiting for your return...and he clean the house everyday...ur photos....he clean till very tidy....he waited for you everyday"....somethig like dat la..haha!....

den suddenly shift scene d.....to 1 auntie....she seems to be that guy's mom..haha! weird huh???so yea...then this auntie keep talk and talk..and i dunno what is she talking....but then....what i saw is that...when she talk..i was trying to jot down what she said..so that i can embed on her graveyard..LOL !!!....

she keep talking and talking..den her lips turn WHITE....den she fall on me......LOL.......and then i received a msg in my phone..and TA DA i'm awake....with all the dreams fresh in my mind....HAHA!thx to the msg i'm awake..or else..i wouldn't want to imagine what is going to happen next..hehe!

*WHEEE*

Live Life to the Fullest :)

hmmm....recently i heard that 2 persons just passed away...i mean..its like kinda sad...though we dunno who they are....we still feel sorry......

1st person that i heard about was my bus driver's uncle....somehow he passed away...sudden death...haiz...

2nd was my friend's friend's bro.....hmmm


i do feel sorry.....


u see....we wont know what is going to happen in the future...life is short.....

live your life to the fullest....appreciate every1 around YOU....do not waste time....tell them how you love them...tell them how much you care for them......

*BEFORE ITS TOO LATE*

aiya aiya...

omg.....3 days.... 3 DAYS...3 days wont be seeing her on9....how sad....ish!

bla bla bla......these 3 days gonna sleep early..wheee....

but...haiz...

have fun...take care and all the best to you :)

life is always risky...

we wouldn't know what is going to happen to us...haiz....everyday my life in on risk....

1) walking out from school....might get hit by a car....struck by thunder...killed by thief,...what else???

2) on the way back home...uncle drive like stuntman....so freaking risky...what if i got hit by cars???haiz...



i just hope that i can live till that day..till your burfday...where i will explain everything....hmmm....i hope you will appreciate what i've been doing all this while..i hope u will be happy after u receive it rather den feel guilty or anything else.....

*HMMM*

FINAL HERE I COME !!!

gosh.....i cant believe i masuk final...haha!! dis is so awesome!!...geezz....

i play kinda sucky today....

1)leg cramp
2)too tired coz after school den go KOKO sports...den competition for badminton..
3)didnt eat anything since morning!!.
4)court too dark....the court so sucky...


hahhaa....its all reasons..i know....hehe!! thx to my couz..or else we wont win....FINAL NEXT WEDNESDAY !!!...

i wanna thx those who wishes me....thx all of you especially YOU....thx to you i managed to focus in the game though my leg cramp or stomach ache...thx :)....

*FINAL!!*

mood swing......

we were just friends at 1st...i din even thought of falling for you....but I DID...and the reason is because i like you???hmmm...its weird....like some1 with no reason...haiz...every1 been asking me why u like her...and i will ask he/she back...why u like him/her??omg....dis is so frustrating...

i din expect it will be this deep...hmmm....what i'm trying to say that...i'm sux at *KAO-ING* a gurl...i do admit it...and i know gurls do not like this type of guys??hmmm....i feel so useless....anyway i will still keep to my own WAY OF LIFE...

i would like to find some1 that.....doesn't mind if i dunno how to be romantic...hmmm...i do sux at it...

next....do not like to flirt around and she dislike guys that flirt...

den....that gurl will trust me 24/7 and she will share with me all her burdens...i do hope to help...haiz..

*longer list...cant think of it*...the main thing is....SHE trust me more than any1 would...

so far...i dun think i get any1 yet....hmmm

i wont give up until you rejected me or some1 told me that you like some1 else....

*MY WAY OF LIFE IN RELATIONSHIP :)*