bored !

i feel so bored without her wei !! seriously..omg....thought the whole day is packed with activities....but it feels like the body is there...but the soul is somewhere else :(

morning called and sms after that not anymore...

then my sister ajak me go for movie so yea i followed....aaahhh! i have to drive ! :(  fetch 7 ppl omg !.....went to MBO to watch gulliver's travel...hmmm...not bad la..i cant really enjoy the movie coz of youknowwhy....then drive to AEON to buy school shoe for my bro.......after that.....balik rumah.....reach home bout 5.30pm..gosh....so freaking tired...

i thought she will msg me at night but she didnt :(  okay....den...my aunt's friends arrived! its time for cooking class !!! woots ! 1st..the garlic den the onion...my EYES !! omg......den to the squid....geli !!  the ink the eyes the whatever it is.....yucks..hahaha.....clean everything d....

then lets start cooking !!! wheee......it is not easy as i expected :(...lots of things to do and take note of....anyway i think i can manage to do it.. as i will be cooking only for 1 person??hmmm.....pray hard that everything will go smoothly..wheee....

have to go pasar to buy squid tmr...grr...who can teman me ? :(  haiz...i must learn myself ! fine xD...

woohoo......

still no news from her....blablabla......

ukw?imysmw   :(

Confusion....

hmmmm......aiya....after talking to my close friend aka my senior.....i seriously dunno what should I do now...

SHOULD i continue what i am doing??i mean,will it be worth all the things i've done??

what if... everything just POOF all over again??haiz....i dun mind it POOF away but i'm still a human rite???i got feelings wan ma..aiyo....

2 of my friends envy that i can handle this POOF thingy....what can i do other then keep on smiling???hmmpf....i guess....there is no1 know me well enough....all of my friends though they know me well but there is alot of things i'm hiding deep down inside me....all just to myself.....what is the point letting others know bout me???

the only thing i can do is SMILE....smile not only brings up other's mood but also for myself...ain't that right ?hmmm...

anyway...JESSY....i wanna thank you for all the support u gave me since last 3 years??hahaha.....Gosh....

So now....what should I do with it now??i've done so many things....i think i should just end it by finishing it rite??let fate decide my future...yea....let it be...just follow the flow.....wheeeee.....

i love to sing :)

Singing is my favourite..I sing more than 1 hour each day..I know my voice sux and it is annoying,so what?? Like la i give a damn about it :(  i wont stop singing if you tell me to but err i will sing softer xD

I will only sing when I'm alone,bored,happy,emo and even bathing :)

Singing is part of my life..I just cant live without it...

The most important thing is that I will sing if I'm really stress out.I need it to calm myself down or else I will go crazy..haha

SO....
Whenever I'm singing please do not stop me eventhough it is annoying or irritating

THX FOR YOUR SUPPORT =P

"this"

"this" is the thing that i still cant achieve until today...
i just don't get it why but it seems like others is doing it pretty easy.."this" thing seriously gave me a big headache everything i have a new "this" gosh...
"this" is very complicating until now i dunno what is the "this" thinking bout...
its really hard to guess or whatever it is...haiz...
so "this" thingy hor...aiya...it comes and go just like that....sometimes i not sure whether i am still worth it for this "this".....
or i'm in another type of "this".....omg! its so freaking confusing...hmm....."this"  blinds everyone......
i hope 1 day i can get this "this" woots!....but i dun think it is easy for me to achieve it eh...even now i'm already having this :"this" but then i dun think "this" person that i'm having this "this" notice or understand me :(...so yea i will still leaving out the world of "this" ..woots....there goes YUAN the odd wan :(

Small Pig...

aaahh....what should I write bout this little small pig of mine???hahahahaha....

errrr.....small pig is not "evil" as you can see....owh owh !!...small pig loves to POKE !!...small pig can poke many many times ad its quite fast??what to do...small pig is a black belt holder eh??hahahahha

err what else bout small pig ??omg......oooohhhh.....its nice to talk to small pig thru phone....woots!...for the 1st time i talk to someone for this long..OMGOSH!....small pig happy eh???hahaha....

and and..small pig is very very very scared of small pig's daddy xD  especially when small pig's daddy frowned...i really wanna see your daddy le...woots! hahaha...to compare your daddy scarier or my mommy scarier...LOL...

1 more thing ! small pig HATES someone to chat with small pig in facebook chat thingy....it will disturb small pig's focus on something else....so please...readers out there...if you know small pig please do not chat with small pig that often in facebook....haha....... SMALL PIG agree with me ?? :)

1 more thing ! small pig is adorable ! hahaha....err...which pig is not adorable??hehehe....indirectly i'm trying to say the big pig is adorable also..woots

1 last thing !! errr.....she is errr....AWESOME :)

and last but not least :)  this post is dedicated to my beloved small pig..LOL...


*peace*  oink oink =P

SICK !!

aaahhh....its rare for me to get sick but once i get sick it will be quite serious wan....is it because of G6PD??damn it wei....
i still remember there is once i got high fever....that is my worst nightmare...hmm....for 4 days...whatever i consume,i will vomit out immediately...water food..anything !......and guess what..in that 4 days ! i lost 5 KG !!...hahahaa.....awesome rite :).....
and 1 more thing....i will get sick suddenly wan...no warning at all..grrr...
that is what happened to me yesterday !grrr....i was okay the whole day..nothing weird and nothing happened..after watch movie and all..i drive back home and straight away to bed...i feel so cold..i thought that is normal coz i just came out from the cinema???then after a short nap i woke up and my body is effing warm plus my leg is super duper pain...so sudden wei....the next morning...i tried to stand up but i cant...my leg hurts like nobody business and i called my mom...she brought me to a clinic...had an injection on my BUTT...and the pain went off...its something like pain killer???OWH YEA...my temperature reached up to 103 degrees wei !!scare me !!
anyway last night,my fever is quite bad...and my leg is hurting me pretty bad....there is only 3 person that i have in my mind on that particular time...1st of all is my mom....2nd is SMALL pig and lastly is GOD.....i dunno why but they are the ones that pop out in my mind....

and thx to you SMALL pig for accompanying me till so late...hohohoho....i'm so much better now after an injection...ahhh!!..

and i'm sorry to all the committees...that i din make it for the meeting....very very sorry...

KCBA 15th DYC

aahhhhh !!!! its another awesome camp we had !!

Pre-camp...
ahhhh!!! the time is like moving so freaking SLOW !!....we want to end the day ASAP but its like no ending...FUHHH......settle some stuff den walk around...doing nothing...AT LAST its night !!!

1st day
At last at last !! its camp time !!!...WOOHOO !!!....so so so so so freaking effing excited !! there is a participant reach about 10.30am..SO EARLY WEI !! more and more participant is registering..aahh !!...then start with ice breaking game !! fuuhh....gan chiong le hold the mic..hahhaha...anyway i'm glad they enjoyed :)  game grouping is kinda messy especially during Bear-fish-mosquitoe xD
UNCLE VIJAYA's talk is awesome rite !!! he is 1 of the best speaker u ever met rite???rite??hahahha....

2nd day
woots!! start with CAPTAIN BALL......G6 won...however they lose to the committee...HAHAHA...booo xD....next is word search...hahaha...its fun to read the passage....woots.....THE QUARTERMASTER IS also KNOWN AS "NIGHT OWL" :) ...hmmm.....AMAZING RACE.....at 1st i wanted to cry coz i failed...I FAILED to make it smoothly....however i didnt...i wanted to scold...chia wei tell me to ctrl..end up i didnt do it also....IN THE END..i only debrief..dats all :(.....presentation by Dr.PHANG i was not there..grrr.......and lastly is FEEL YOUR WAY....its so freaking funny wei !! hahhaa....they were blind folded...i told my group to bend down and walk and they DID !!! HAHAHA!!!...they sure thought there is a pole or something xD....they are so cute..wheee....

3rd day
start off with DETECTIVE D....is so freaking funny la !!!...my role is ex boyfriend....hmm....i broke up last month..gamble in macau..got a new GF...she got no money ( all i created myself )..HAHA....so ish!!...woots....so fun to be 1 of the suspect xD....next is physically challenged....hmmm....they enjoyed !! :)...i think they ejoy presentation by wee kuan also eh...the musical thingy :)... PEPSI COLA !!...ahh !! i miss the fun wei !! gosh !! grr...
next is water war !!.....i actually had fun preparing the water balloons...haha!! me tuck long and jason...rendam ourselves in the pale with the balloons....den we play BEAR FISH MOSQUITOE while preparing...the winner get the pipe to SPLASH !!...hahaha!! so funny la ..... and we crack alot of jokes..whee.....during water war...i ter-splash kuan wei's DSLR !! omg..i damn sry wei !! haiz....anyway we had fun !! rite ?!?! :)
last but not least is ZOMBIE RACE...hoooo......my station...the straw ball game....ACTUALL hor... u guys are reusing it...we just rinse it only..>HAHAHAH!!!...too bad xD

4th day
ahh!! its the last day wei !!...anyway in the morning we play the game...FUN FAIR :)....i'm the robber...and my job is to ROB and hide from police which is justin..hehe.....he cant find me for the 1st 2 rounds....then the 3rd round he caught me !!!...coz he hire ppl to catch me :(.....i ran from them....and i ter-drag a guy on the floor...i'm so so so so so sry wei ....haiz!!!..then then then..next is...slides and cert presentation...we have special tepukan for JASON and the president..awww...how sweet..haha....
last is FAREWELL.....the mood is like so happy.....but why CRY ?!?! ahhh!!...i cant tahan my tears wei!!...1st time i cry in front of so many ppl !!the reason i cry because :-
1) the camp might be the last camp.
2) i saw a girl cry
3) thought of the letter which chia wei wrote to me.
4) the SONGS !! omg =.='

THE END~~

this camp set the most participants among all the other years....i feel so awesome !!....
i wanna APOLOGISE to all of you if i made u guys angry or anything.....
AND 1 MORE THING.....my face look scary or fierce...but inside i'm like a girl...HAHAHA....so dun be afraid of me.....HEARD THAT AH    SMALL PIG :).....woots !!..

the things i learnt !
1 )  how to operate some1's leg if there is a stone in it...
2) be more confident while holding mic.
3) coping with loneliness...make yourself needed to feel needed..
4) EMO xD....hahaha




THE PICTURES WILL BE UPLOADED next time :)

*poke*

you know why i do not wanna end the poke??its because i miss you...

i cant talk to u..whenever i talk to u..somehow it will just end...i just wanna see your name keep appearing in my page....hmmm...

that is the only way to make me not to miss you dat much...lol...

i hope u will just continue doing it.....god bless u :)

the reason why...

woots.....at 1st i was so freaking active in updating my blog....

when time goes by...i'm getting bored...i mean...i've got less idea to blog....hoho....old d..mind works slower :( ....anyway there is a reason why i kept it alive...woots....there is this person that told me to create a blog and yea...i did created 1 which is yuanyuanthatsme.blogspot.com :)...

i wanted to just let it be dead but i tak sanggup to do so.....that is why my blog is like no visitors...haha...its basically for myself to read oly...or mayb few years later...i will view back all those old posts...and being nostalgic again xD....

my royal reader din even wanna read anymore...*sigh* i guess....its really for myself....

have fun VENDRICK...SHIOK SENDIRI =.='

I love it and I hate it !

gosh....  i love to focus on something but then i do hate it at the same time...haha.

the reason why i love it is because..err....make me more awake and more challenging.....its much fun this way...hahaha....and and and...it will also make the time flies :)....for example focusing on math question paper....without noticing the time...few hours already passed....how awesome is dat....same case to food...breakfast,lunch,dinner....focus on the food....without noticing...the food will finish in just few minutes...that is why i din talk when i'm eating...HAHAHA

i hate it because....it makes me sweat !! i dunno why...each time i focus on something..i sure sweat like nobody business.....especially eating...omg....the whole table..i'm the only 1 sweating..haha....special personality xD.....even playing DOTA.....focus on it will make me sweat...sitting down moving only fingers..can make me sweat....gaya rite ?! HAHHA

A selfish and immature act !

gosh.....committing suicide will get what benefit ??? oh my god.....
1st of all....your WHOLE family will be so UPSET that u commit suicide...you are a freaking son !  let say if your family is those typical type....OMG....they are so gonna KILL u again for committing suicide =.='...your parents feed you and whatsoever for how many freaking years?! and you waste it just like that??imagine the hardwork they have done and gave it to you....haiz...

2nd....you are so being selfish !   by committing suicide....you are making that girl FEEL so bad !!! you wrote there....do not blame it on her....DO YOU THINK your family wont blame her???think wisely la...what is wrong with you wei....

3rd....you are a freaking pro DOTA player....get 2nd place in MSIA....why would you wanna waste it???no love so what??GO FOR DOTA LA !!...then find back a new 1 la!....there is not only 1 girl in the whole world la !... or u shouldnt GIVE UP although she say NO...come on la !

IT is useless for me to say all this to you already ALVISS....coz u are already in the underworld....


This post is specially for those GUYS or GURLS out there that is still alive and is in a relationship/single......THINK WISELY BEFORE YOU Do ANYTHING STUPID....


BY COMMITTING SUICIDE is not showing how GREAT you are but its showing how STUPID you are.Its not about showing HOW MUCH GUTS you HAVE but its showing HOW TIMID you are...Because you don't dare to face the reality...


I doesn't mean to being offensive..just that i feel it is a waste of a freaking life...thx...

Sorry that I loved you ...

For all the time that I tried for your smile...
For making you think that i was worth the while...
so you love love love love love would be mine...
For sending you flowers and holding your hand...
That no one was there to take a stand...
But then love love love make us blind..
And I'm so sorry that i hurt you...
Sorry that I fell through...
Sorry i was falling in love with you...
I'm sorry that it came through but sorry doesn't turn back time...
For all that i've done to you..
I wish that I could make it right...
So sorry that I loved you..
Sorry that I needed you..
Sorry that I held you tight..
AND i'm so sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye..
For being the one that taught you how to cry..
It was love love love and it passed us by..
For giving you everything that you dreamed..
For taking it back when I fled the scene..
Sorry love for wasting your time..


:(

replacement failure !

do you know why i din tell you about the "person" i like???

its because i still have feelings towards YOU...i try to find for replacement....i thought it would be good..but den...i dun think it work out well as what i plan...haiz....i do hope dat...

WHAT IS MALYSIA ?!?!

so....what is the real meaning of malaysia ?!? omg!!...thx to my PA teacher..i damn eager to know what is the real meaning of it..i mean how they form the word MALAYSIA....aiya....every country got their own hidden meaning..but malaysia.??grr...

combination of MALAY and ASIA..dat is why it is call as malaysia...hmm..but !.... why asia ?? why thailand din put thaisia??  why is it asia? why china is not chisia??whatever......

the next answer is err...  MALAY S(sino=chinese) I(india) and A(forgot d..the meaning is lain lain) hahhaa!!.....if got ppl answer dis....its bullshit ! lol.....

SO what is the real meaning of malaysia ?!?

another answer !!

there is once a friend of mine asked me....can u differentiate like and love...hmmm..i couldnt answer my this particular friend though...

so i found out another answer of it...

LIKE is a mild LOVE....

LOVE is more to FOCUS i deep relationship...hmmm


i regretted for everything i did before this..grrr.....y i din think of this answer..haiz....if i can turn back time :'(