If and only if "things" happen..

I'm afraid that it might be too late for me to do anything.. Nothing is too late unless the person doesnt exist anymore. I realise this when 1 of my friend passed away.

Since i'm now living in a country which is not safe, i might as well do everything i have to do..hmmm...i might get rob and killed anytime...that is the risk for being here...
so yea....
the very 1st thing i did is that to tell you that i love you...i'm not sure you will be reading this or not but if and only if "things" happen...this post will be a letter for you....
Since the day I know you, you made my world so much better. Without you, i wont be here being so OPEN, I wont be dieting coz of the comments you gave me, wont be so keen to know about the meaning of love..

I know i cant do anything to get it back to you. I know you would want me to find some one else.

I've tried. I've tried so hard to forget about you but every single thing i do will remind me of you. I cant cheat on another girl saying "i love you" while my heart and my mind is all about you rite. I will feel guilty for the other girl and i feel like a JERK.
I've always love you. Its gonna be 2 years already but still *sigh*..

I know that you do still have a lil bit of feeling towards me but why? i just wanna know the reason why? at least please tell me a reason why...

Everything i do remind me of you.....every story i said relates to you.... every dream i had i seems to lost you....

take care....

If "things" happen...i hope you will get to read this.... love yea..