Comfort Zone

The boss told me about comfort zone before I came over here to work. It’s really not easy to get out of the comfort zone. Back at home, we can have what we want.

            When I need something, I will walk up to my mom and ask it from her. We will have a nice place to stay, nice food to eat, no worries to think about, entertainment 24 hours etc. These are all the things we have in the comfort zone. What if, you get rid all of that? You have to stay at shitty place *alone*, have to eat what the others eat, always think what is about to happen next, no entertainment at all etc. Do you think you can handle it?

            It’s a BIG NO for me. I’m not shy to admit that I can’t handle that pressure. It’s been 3 weeks now that I’m out of the comfort zone. How I wish that I’m back there enjoying. You will need someone to help you out to get rid of the comfort zone. It’s not easy doing it alone. I’m also not shy to admit that I cried. A 19 years old big size guy cry like a small baby. The feeling is so stressful and it’s hard to keep so I just burst it out into tears.

            There’s good and bad side of getting out of the comfort zone. Well for the bad side of it is that ……… *well don’t have any I guess*. Anyway the good side of it is that, you will know who are the ones that really care for you. The ones who thought about you and always take cares about you. Well, the very 1^st of the ones are my mom. Even before I fly, she called and cried. She is a very tough woman. One of the woman that I would respect. I knew that she care for me since the day I born. Just that we *as a teenager* thinks that they are not being fair to us. Next are my grandmaS. Both of them. I used to avoid them a lot. They always talk non stop *will I be like them when I’m old?*. They can talk for the whole day *shiok sendiri*. Now? I miss them so much. When I found out that my grandma is coming over at the end of the year, I can’t believe that I’m so freaking excited. For the 1^st time *I think*  that I can’t wait to see my grandma. Next are my sisters. Both of my sisters, Yee Wen *old* and Yee Huey *young*. My elder sister wished me and all and she is like somehow a messenger for me and my mom. She scold us a lot but behind us she did a lot of good stuff for us. I knew all that but I keep it to myself only. My younger sister actually inbox me and ask “How are you?” *forget what else*. She never ask me or do anything to me before. I guess she misses me *being perasaan*. I miss my elder sister’s scoldings and I miss disturbing *plucking* my younger sister’s hair. Among all my friends, I guess only few of them are still talking to me or is it because I’m not talking to them? One of them is LEYA. I already talked about her at the previous post. By the way I forgot to mention that you are the 1^st and maybe the only person thinks that I can sing and have a nice voice *flattered* and you are the reason why I started this blog. I guess all my friends are busy with their own ‘ getting out of the comfort zone ‘ task.

            The other good thing about getting out of the comfort zone is that, we can learn  how to be independent *the shortcut way*. You will have no one to rely on. Only you yourself should know what to do. I’m already here for 3 weeks. I’ve got diarrhea for like one week plus because of the water that I don’t get used to it and now I’m having flu and a cough that make my chest and throat hurts *its like the blood are coming o ut*. If I’m still in the comfort zone, I will walk up straight to my mom and said, “ mi,I’m having cough and I wanna consult a doctor”. Now? I can only drink herbal tea * I miss my grandma’s herbal tea* and have a good rest *which I can’t*. These are the shortcut to be independent, ‘ Getting out of comfort zone ‘.

QUICK, STRAIGHT FORWARD and EFFECTIVE.

~That’s all for now.

Lots of love,

*signature*

6.30pm PNG time,4.30pm MSIA time =D

*in the middle of the work while typing this*

The Biggest Impact of my life...

                I still remember everything,EVERYTHING about you.A friend of mine,Wilson introduced us.That time I’m quite shy to talk to you and all *normalforaguylikeme*.Then after we finish the class thingy,you,me,Wilson and Cindy meet up at the canteen and we do all the signature thingy and you wrote about losing more weight then will look more “yandao”.I’m so flattered.That was like my only time I start to diet.

                Next we have this Kelas Kenegaraan Thing and I was so happy to be in the same class as you.I cant believe my own eyes when I found out about that. But still,I don’t have the guts to go and sit and talk to you. I still remember about the line graph thing I told you and then you gave me a letter with a heart shape. Then we have 5 days off for CNY.We texted like day and night.i went back to camp earlier and I texted you about the trip to the fire engine station.Too bad you extended your holidays.i thought we could have some good time there.When you came back,that Cindy keep teasing me about everytime I see you only I will smile.During the last 2 days in the class,I had the best time in my life in NS.We chat like there is no tomorrow.We chat throughout the day.I don’t even care what is going on in the class *seriously*.

                I never ever interested in marathon before.I did not went for a marathon before not until I saw you run.I feel so down to not catch up with you and the others in that 1km run.I feel useless and that’s why I join the marathons after NS to get myself fit.

                When the camp comes to the end,you told me “13 days left,if you got anything to say to me better  say now”, and no I didn’t say anything “special”.

                Then the 3 retarded people *including me* follow your dad’s care back home.I remember that I gave you another letter in the car itself.We had dinner with your parents then head back home.

                If I’m not mistaken,after 1 or 2 weeks later,you asked me out to go for those college hunt thingy.My mom actually decided that I will be going to form 6 or local college.By the way,that was my very first time taking train alone to subang and it was also my first time that I walk back from the train station *dangerous alley*.  *guys will do anything just for a girl*. I love that picture your friend took in Monash.the big wall thing in between.The picture illustrate a lot about life.

                Since then,we text lesser than usual.When I say lesser it means very rare.Maybe because you use digi and I use maxis? After quite some time,I get a digi number but still not much different.i miss those time we had during CNY.

                We met up like once every 2 or 3 months? Everytime before we head back home,you will give me a hug but after quite some time,not anymore.

                I had a really great time with you just before I came over here in Papua New Guinea.It was my 2^nd time drive up to Subang and it was my 1^st time driving alone without guides.I call Nahen for directions,luckily I didn’t get lose *it wont happen anyway*.

                That hug you gave me at Starbucks made my made.I miss you my dear NS buddy.I will succeed by the age of 29 *in business*.

Its never too late for anything.Its up to us whether we want it or not.I made a mistake once and I will never do it again.A person must not afraid of doing mistakes if he wants to succeed in life.If I’m afraid of it,life wouldn’t be interesting as how it is right now.One day.Just one day,I will succeed both in relationship and career because I’m not afraid of doing mistakes.

It is not about luck for someone to achieve something.its how you find and grab the opportunities and whether you are willing to go for it or not. ~ Boss.

My aim for now is to work,learn,achieve something and also you.i miss you.Thanks for the “book”.As I said,you are the one and only person that are willing to do all this for me.Thank you so much <3

Lots of love,

*signature*

8.40pm

Lucky me / Unlucky me

JUDGE ME =D

PNG aka Papua New Guinea

Alot of people says that it is very dangerous in PNG.PNG is listed in the top 10 most dangerous country.Its quite true that you cant see many tourists here.There is also so called red area and green area known as dangerous and safe place respectively.
For foreign workers like me,an asian to go out to the street to buy things is a must for a local worker to follow.If those bad guys saw us walking or driving alone,they will rob you FOR SURE.
Even the locals told me that.Have to believe about the news *sigh*
PNG is not a well developed country YET.There are more and more investors coming in.10 or maybe 20 more years later,PNG is gonna be a great country.
Security guards is hired by EVERY single shop and house.Some rich people like those high commissioner will have electrical fence.After 6pm is a must to not wander around.After 6pm,the guards will doubled and they will armed with automatic guns..COOL EH?? =D

My job here is quite interesting and challenging.Tonnes of things for me to do.accounts *which i dont really like before this* etc..

READ THIS book "if you want to be rich and happy,Dont go to school?"  its interesting =D

I had the time of my life.

I had the time of my life just before i go to Papua. As I know Papua got nothing on entertainment.Its only work life.haha..Last saturday,3 days before i depart,I went for volleyball game.I did get to play and became the referee for the competition.At least I did enjoyed what I loved most before i depart.

Next is that I went back to Boys Brigade on the same day also.Luckily I managed to reach in time for devotion.haha...sing along session with all the boys.gosh..I gonna miss those moments so much..I also had BKT for my entire life so i wouldnt regret bout that.hehe..

so yea....basically that is all I wanted to do just before i leave and put my foot into the working life..hahhaa...

I GONNA MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH...EVERY SINGLE 1 OF YOU ! ESPECIALLY YOU =D