Haze relate it to human feelings?

Sooooooo class cancelled and I'm so freaking bored and thus came out with a topic for me to write and also to train myself for creative thinking class :)

How can haze relate to human feelings?

Haze doesn't appeared naturally just like how human feelings doesn't come naturally. Something have to happen before we have feelings. For example, my dog just passed away and im feeling sad or I just won a lottery, im so happy !

First of all we can relate haze to happiness. how? Haze doesnt appeared by itself. Something might happened that caused the haze. Happiness is something created rite? So yea so haze represent happiness :)

Now, haze represents sadness ? haze is not something bring. Its dull and moody and sad and quiet. There is nothing attractive about it. That is all sadness.

So yea. haze relate to human feelings :) 

When you found that special thing....

Lets see.......

It has been 2 years since I let go of her and moved on. The girl that gave me the biggest impact in my life and it took me quite some time to let go. Its not easy if you know how it is like to really love someone.

In this 2 years time, i was searching for the love that was missing from my life. It is not easy either because everything just doesn't seems right. No matter how hot or pretty or kind or generous the girls is, it just doesn't seems right. Maybe my expectation is just too high.

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Just recently, i found someone that is really special and i felt the feelings that i had that i lost it long time ago.

How i met her?
I would say that it is God's plan.

I used to go to church when i was 15 but i did not accept Christ yet. I received Christ into my life when i was 20 which is last year. The reason why i accepted Him is because i felt his presence and He answered my prayer. I used to be a Buddhist. A strong one indeed but for me Buddhism is just a teaching. In Christianity, i felt God presence and that is why i received Christ into my life. My family members are fine with it although I'm the only christian in the family. They respect my decision.

*back to topic*

And so i joined college. Trust me when i said college is the best time in your life. SOOOO many hot girls and hot guys everywhere.
When i first saw this girl, she is just like any other ordinary girl. Nothing special about her.
One day in CF, while we were praying, she came to me and said that she would wanna pray for me and so i agree with it as i do really need prayers at that time.

Since then, everything changed. I dont know when i started to have a crush on her. I dont know when i start talking to her/fb her/sms her etc.
And now i think i have fall for her.

The feeling that i was once lost is back now.

Thank you God for coming into my life and set a path for me.

God is always there with you even he don't answer your prayer. Nothing comes easy. He is there to set the path for you so that you will learn to appreciate it when you got what you want or need. Always have FAITH in Him and how He loved us.

Thank you Lord for everything.

Amen :)

Jesus be the center of it all.....

The title says it all.......

Purpose of Life...

I went to this church in Berkeley on Saturday Night and this pastor said "nowadays there is a lot of people committing suicide". Why?
The reason is very simple. They do not have purpose of life. They dont know what they want, what they need and what will happened to those that are so close with them.

As a normal human teenager, i did thought of committing suicide. Thought of all kind of ways but just dont dare to do it. After thinking about it, i felt so immature and I'm glad i didnt made it or else, i wouldnt experience as much as now.

*get back to the topic*

so, purpose of life. The question here is " what is your purpose of life? "

As for mine, it would be " searching for my purpose of life "

and yes, it sounds weird but that is my current purpose of life.

Without it, i would be heading to nowhere. I would be stucked at a place where i got no more meaning to live. Without this, i would have been dead by now.

Anyway, thanks to my timid personality, i didnt managed to suicide and yea i will continue to move on and search for my purpose of life and once i found it, i will find another one and so on.

For those, who wanna commit suicide, THINK again. DO NOT TALK, JUST THINK.... What will happen to those around you? what you gonna miss in your live if you suicide? and is it worth doing it?

Even if you dont love your own life, think about those around you.

~ love yourself and love others ~

*ter changed topic* =D

Once Upon A Time...

Once Upon A Time, I was so deeply in love with this particular lady... its been so many years now..Trust me, its the hardest part of my life to let go. The memories i had with her is unexplainable. In a nutshell, its PRECIOUS.. =D..

so yea..... everytime i miss her, i will just look through the book she gave me and the post she had it in her blog ;

i know, whatever i want to say now is useless, totally meaningless, they wont make a sense to you, they cant even cure your broken heart.

i know, you're a indisputable nice guy, a truly gentleman.

i know, you respect my decision.

i know, you keep everything to yourself, choosing to face them alone.

i know, i hurt you deeply.

i know, you're pretending to be okay, indeed, you aren't.

i know, the reason you've treated me so nice, so pleasant, so sweet, so caring.

i know, why you were always there, every single second, every single minute, every single hour, every single moment that i've needed you.

i know, you love me.

and i know, there'll be someone much much much better than me outside there, waiting for you, your true love.

you know, i love you, as a friend.

you know, whenever you call my name, i'll be there.

i know, i broke that promise at certain moments.

you know, i wanted to pour out everything, i wanted to cry out as loud, as hard as i can, but i just couldn't.

you know, it's more difficult not being able to express it out than being able to express it out.

you know, i feel bad to ignore such a good friend like you.

you know, i feel worse after knowing how do you feel.

you know, i appreciate the joy, the fun we had in those days, in PLKN. Thanks for the memories, dear.

you know, i appreciate every single thing that you've done for me, even the smallest thing.

i know, it's not a simple thing to get through all the pains that you're having now.

i know, maybe it's a better way for you to forget about my existence in this world.

you know, i dont want to see you sad.

you dont understand how i feel.

you know, you're ineffable.

you know, who you are.

and this post is dedicated to you.

Thank You Very Much.

In the past, I would feel so sad and all when i read this but TODAY. TODAY, im not sure WHY and HOW i go back to her blog and read this post, nothing happened... The only thing that happened is, i SMILE.... instead of sad and all, i SMILED !!! hahahhaha....finallyFINALLY !, those days has gone. 

so yea... Although i'm not sure whether you will read this or not.. I just want you to know that you gave me a really really great memories and i treasure that... THANK YOU SO MUCH for that...

I'm actually smiling all the way while posting this.. Thank GOD for it. 

May GOD bless you in your future and i TOO will always keep you in my prayer *ifiremember*...cheers !!! =D

~a burden in my heart finally released~