Jesus be the center of it all.....

The title says it all.......

Purpose of Life...

I went to this church in Berkeley on Saturday Night and this pastor said "nowadays there is a lot of people committing suicide". Why?
The reason is very simple. They do not have purpose of life. They dont know what they want, what they need and what will happened to those that are so close with them.

As a normal human teenager, i did thought of committing suicide. Thought of all kind of ways but just dont dare to do it. After thinking about it, i felt so immature and I'm glad i didnt made it or else, i wouldnt experience as much as now.

*get back to the topic*

so, purpose of life. The question here is " what is your purpose of life? "

As for mine, it would be " searching for my purpose of life "

and yes, it sounds weird but that is my current purpose of life.

Without it, i would be heading to nowhere. I would be stucked at a place where i got no more meaning to live. Without this, i would have been dead by now.

Anyway, thanks to my timid personality, i didnt managed to suicide and yea i will continue to move on and search for my purpose of life and once i found it, i will find another one and so on.

For those, who wanna commit suicide, THINK again. DO NOT TALK, JUST THINK.... What will happen to those around you? what you gonna miss in your live if you suicide? and is it worth doing it?

Even if you dont love your own life, think about those around you.

~ love yourself and love others ~

*ter changed topic* =D

Once Upon A Time...

Once Upon A Time, I was so deeply in love with this particular lady... its been so many years now..Trust me, its the hardest part of my life to let go. The memories i had with her is unexplainable. In a nutshell, its PRECIOUS.. =D..

so yea..... everytime i miss her, i will just look through the book she gave me and the post she had it in her blog ;

i know, whatever i want to say now is useless, totally meaningless, they wont make a sense to you, they cant even cure your broken heart.

i know, you're a indisputable nice guy, a truly gentleman.

i know, you respect my decision.

i know, you keep everything to yourself, choosing to face them alone.

i know, i hurt you deeply.

i know, you're pretending to be okay, indeed, you aren't.

i know, the reason you've treated me so nice, so pleasant, so sweet, so caring.

i know, why you were always there, every single second, every single minute, every single hour, every single moment that i've needed you.

i know, you love me.

and i know, there'll be someone much much much better than me outside there, waiting for you, your true love.

you know, i love you, as a friend.

you know, whenever you call my name, i'll be there.

i know, i broke that promise at certain moments.

you know, i wanted to pour out everything, i wanted to cry out as loud, as hard as i can, but i just couldn't.

you know, it's more difficult not being able to express it out than being able to express it out.

you know, i feel bad to ignore such a good friend like you.

you know, i feel worse after knowing how do you feel.

you know, i appreciate the joy, the fun we had in those days, in PLKN. Thanks for the memories, dear.

you know, i appreciate every single thing that you've done for me, even the smallest thing.

i know, it's not a simple thing to get through all the pains that you're having now.

i know, maybe it's a better way for you to forget about my existence in this world.

you know, i dont want to see you sad.

you dont understand how i feel.

you know, you're ineffable.

you know, who you are.

and this post is dedicated to you.

Thank You Very Much.

In the past, I would feel so sad and all when i read this but TODAY. TODAY, im not sure WHY and HOW i go back to her blog and read this post, nothing happened... The only thing that happened is, i SMILE.... instead of sad and all, i SMILED !!! hahahhaha....finallyFINALLY !, those days has gone. 

so yea... Although i'm not sure whether you will read this or not.. I just want you to know that you gave me a really really great memories and i treasure that... THANK YOU SO MUCH for that...

I'm actually smiling all the way while posting this.. Thank GOD for it. 

May GOD bless you in your future and i TOO will always keep you in my prayer *ifiremember*...cheers !!! =D

~a burden in my heart finally released~

A competition..

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10151095148418723&set=a.10151092629408723.437150.27793348722&type=1&permPage=1 

this is the competition that i joined few days ago and ends on 10th of October..

Its really tiring when other contestant is leading with the "Likes"

And trust me, you would go all out to win this man. You will just spam and ask people to help you with it. Arghhhh...

Who is that person that came out with the idea of this type of competition =.='

Anyway, If you saw this, feel free to help me with a "Like" and share if possible..hahah

WISH ME LUCK =D

What should I do?

I quit my studies halfway through form 6 because studies is not what i really really want. To be exact, i cant just sit down quietly and do revisions and study. Furthermore, i had a major operation on my back bone and i stopped schooling for a month and it made my studies even harder and thus i quit.

So i went to Papua New Guinea to work as a Manager in restaurant. I came back to Malaysia for more than a month already.

Currently I'm working in a haulier company in the operation department. The pay is quite good BUT this is not what i really want.

For the time being, I'm learning my guitar and also coaching volleyball. These 2 things are my passion, what i wanted to do for my life. To excel in these 2 sector.

However, my parent doesnt support me and i'm stucked in this haulage company while doing that 2 things as a part time.

I need someone that i can really talk to. Someone that i could really really trust and share all my stuff. I've been looking forward to talk to you but i just dont know how to start. Since the day i came back from PNG and went out with you for the very 1st time together, i just have the feeling with me which I had few years back.

I do really hope that i would have that chance again. The day when we were so close together and the days that we can just talk to each another so openly.

Sigh....... All I need is someone....someone who can change my life into something better.....that i can live happily without having so many things to think about...........

- I went to a church last saturday and this pastor said about 4 seasons...we humans also do have these thingy. which is Summer (brightest part of us), Autumn (the time when its getting slightly gloomy), Winter (the time when we are totally down, ie emo) and SPring ( a whole new beginning )....and we have to go through all that and we are there for a purpose....

i really do hope that I'm still there in your heart...That you would think of me when all these seasons happened on you...

Anyway, it feels good to have this blog. Although i cant talk it out to you , i can still write it out. hmmm...

Feel so much better right now. Do you ever have that feeling when you something to tell and stucked in your heart for soooooooooo freaking long and when you just let it out it feeelllls so good...that is the feeling i have now....it feels so relaxed right now....

~ inner peace ~