Its been bugging me......

there is this 1 thing that bugging me for 3 months already...hmmm...i dunno how to handle it....gosh....this is like the worst case scenario for me...i mean....each time i failed...i will get over with it...but this is different...i just dunno why....confused....really really confused.....but then....it is so much better now....the difference between last 3 months and last month is totally different...the feelings is different...i guess i made some progress...haha!...it feels good....
but still i dunno what to do....should i throw away the 'paper' or keep it as memory???once in awhile i would open it up and read....i feel the care in it...i dunno why *sigh*.....what about the photos???should i delete??aiyaa.....get headache every time i thought about it :'(  

The more hope you put in,the more disappointment u will get...

ARGHH !!

I got the feeling...

I knew something was wrong when i woke up yesterday..i just got the bad feeling about it...arghh!!...and i dunno what was it...woke up and it was raining....then got in to my mom's car and on the way to school...

the bad stuff starts....

before going to school...i told my mom to drop by at grandma's house 1st because i wanna have a cup of milo xD...then head on to school...once i get down from the car i noticed that my bookmark was missing...it was a gift from jessy...and the bookmark is special coz it is not paper type..haha!...JESSY...i'm so sorry :'(

then i had another bad feelings every time there is thunder....scary wei....they said got spot check...so give the phone to teacher...then wanna take it back that time..cant find the teacher anywhere...haiz....look here and there...arghhh...so crazy wei !!!

next is....when i got home i found out that my modem cant use anymore...then i ask my maid what happened..she said dunno...then i asked my sis's bf and he said mayb it was struck my lightning....arghh!!! but there is 1 lucky thing...my pc din kena....i din even off my pc...hoho!! lucky shit...hehehe...

The Story of a Couple :)

I met my husband in church on a Sunday morning. We met through some friends and I was suppose to be the couple of his best friend and my friend was for him. We all joined the juvenile chorus and spent most Wednesdays and Fridays together at practice. I was 15 and he was 21 it was a great group.

On my 16th birthday I had a small get together at my grandmothers house. Of course I invited him and his friend which was trying very hard to become my boyfriend. Now don't get me wrong both boys were very cute but mike (my husband) was funny and he just caught my attention more. I always had a good time and a good laugh around him. We had become good friends.

In church we did community projects together, we participated in church activities and were together most of the days. He would drive up every afternoon for about 30 miles to see me on my lunch break. I finally budged and became the girlfriend of the other boy. But I found my self unhappy and not in love so I broke it off. Throughout the entire time mike would come by and help me with home work and we talked about his school and mine and his job and what we both wanted to do in life.

He planned on become a police officer I completely supported him as a friend. He finally became a police officer but the job offered was 2 and a half hours away. We thought it would be the worst to keep in touch but he visited every Tuesday and Sunday. He called every night and every morning.

Soon enough he told me that he could not be away from me. So he to ask me to marry him. By this time I was 16 going on 17 yrs old. I was a child but felt so strongly about our feelings that I agreed. We were engaged for 2 years and got married on December 16th 2000. And ever since we've been together for the past 10 years this winter.

Random xD

Cobra

Mental activity is like a deadly poisonous cobra.If we don't interfere with a cobra,it simply goes its own way.Even though it may be extremely poisonous,we are not affected by it.We don't go near it or take hold of it,and so it doesn't bit us.The cobra does what is natural for a cobra to do.That's the way it is.If you are clever,you'll leave it alone.Likewise,you let be that which is not good - you let it be according to its own nature.You also let be that which is good.Don't grab onto liking and disliking,just as you wouldn't interfere with the cobra.

On who is clever will have this kind of attitude towards the various moods that arise in his mind.When goodness arises,we let it be good.We understand its nature.In the same way,we let be the not-good.We let it be according to its nature.We don't take hold of it because we don't want anything.We don't want evil.We don't want good.We don't want heaviness nor lightness,happiness nor suffering.When our wanting is at end,peace is firmly established....

Deep Hole

Most people just want to perform good deeds to make merits,but they don't want to give up wrongdoing.It's just that "the hole is too deep"

      Suppose there was a hole and there was something at the bottom of it.Now anyone who put his hand into the hole and didn't reach the bottom would say the hole was too deep.If a hundred or a thousand people put their hands down that hole,the'd all say the hole was too deep.No one would say that his arm was too short ! We have to come back to ourselves.We have to take a step back and look at ourselves.Don't blame the hole for being too deep.Turn around and look at you own arm.If you can see this,then you will make progress on the spiritual path and will find happiness :)

BOOYEAH !!!

Cholesterol...

Cholesterol, a waxy substance produced by the liver and found in certain foods, is needed to make vitamin D and some hormones, build cell walls, and create bile salts that help you digest fat. Actually, your liver produces about 1,000 milligrams of cholesterol a day, enough cholesterol so that if you never touched another cheese fry, you'd be OK. But it's hard to avoid cholesterol entirely because so many foods contain it.

Too much cholesterol in the body can lead to serious problems like heart disease.

ITS A NO !!....cholesterol doesn't lead to heart disease or stroke....

i went to a talk about this cholesterol...i was surprised when this doctor actually said that cholesterol got nothing to do with heart disease and strokes...he said that research shows that there is 15% of people who got heart disease and stroke were in a normal cholesterol level..

Previously...all the scientist said that cholesterol got to do with all these...but now....more and more scientist is taking back what they had said...

GUESS WHAT WE SHOULD DO IF WE GOT HIGH CHOLESTEROL ??
the only way we should do is to do nothing about it....HOHO....that is what the doctor actually told us...i'm surprised...he said it has no hard to us....furthermore,if our body got too less of cholesterol,we will be dead :)

i dunno wat i'm crapping here...in a nutshell,cholesterol got nothing to do with strokes and heart disease...so eat more BAH KUT TEH :)

WHEEE !!!